365 Days of Smiles - Day 112

Someone suggested yesterday that I should write a blog. It seems a lot of folks are living vicariously through my Facebook posts! Well, I have this little blog here, and no… I haven’t abandoned it. May has just not really been a very happy month for me. I had to break up with a friend. Ever had to do that? It sucks! So the first week or so of May I was struggling with the question… to break up or not break up? Then, after I did it… well of course I felt like crap for making them feel like crap. Or maybe it didn’t make them feel like crap. I don’t know… I love this person to death and only wish the best for them. I finally just had to walk away for my own sanity. I hate that there is nothing I can do for this person. But I finally had to admit that to myself and walk away. I’m still a little down about the whole situation, but it’s getting easier day by day. sigh!

Now, happiness is going to see White’s Lies again and again! I’ve seen it 5 times already and am going to go see it again this weekend. The last time I saw it was about a week after I broke it off with this friend. Tuc is keeping track of how many times I see the play. I don’t know how, but he is. Maybe he has a giant calendar in the back where he writes in the dates that the crazy girl keeps coming back? LOL Anyway, he really lifted my spirits when he said “since you’ve seen the show 5 times, you should have 5 photos”! And the gorgeous man posed for 5 different photos with me after the show. I love this man! And I love that I can speak to him in complete sentences now too! He’s such a cool dude! I’m so glad that he was cast in this role and that I have had the opportunity to get to chat with him outside of the soap opera world!

White’s Lies also allows me the opportunity to see Betty Buckley in a Broadway play. Off-Broadway, but still… New York is just a little bit brighter with Betty Lynn in town. She’s got this positive energy that just seems to beam throughout the city. I have been a fan of Betty’s for many many years, and I’m so glad that I’m living here in NYC now that she’s back on stage. What a great opportunity! I was able to attend the very first preview of the play. It’s changed a lot over the past 6 weeks, and I love that I still am completely exhausted after seeing it… from laughing SO hard for 2 hours straight!

This past Saturday, a friend and I waited outside of the theater where Love, Loss and What I Wore is playing. She has seen the show, I haven’t. But she wanted to meet Brooke Shields, so I went with her. I got a picture of Brooke and of Doris Roberts. Super cool! Sometimes I can’t believe I’m actually living here in New York City. It was a dream for so long, it’s a bit surreal that I’m here! I’m really here! People still tell me how proud they are that I followed my dream and moved here, and they rave about how brave I am. I don’t really look at it as being brave. I just followed my dream. The opportunity opened up, and I grabbed it. Sometimes you just have to jump in with both feet. I can’t imagine living anywhere else. This is where I belong.

Oh, another fun thing that happened in May… I became a member of The Imperial Court of New York. I LOVE these guys and gals! I’ve been attending their events and volunteering at their events for the past two years. My court name is Lady Marguerite. Marguerite means daisy in French. I love daisies because they are so happy! The court does the most wonderful fundraising. Every event they have is a fundraiser for some deserving group. Now… I realize that the chances of meeting a husband in a group that is mostly gay are probably quite slim. Oh well… I get to do fundraising, which I love! I get to dress up… which I really miss from being in shows! And, I get to hang out with some really great people… and soak up fabulous beauty tips from the most beautiful drag queens EVER!

Wow… have I made up for not blogging nearly the entire month of May? Looking back on the month, I guess I did have happy things to blog about. The friend break up thing kind of overshadowed all the happy times… gotta stop letting it do that and move on! Funny, that’s what my friend would always say after they tore into me and made me feel like crap. They never wanted to talk about it, just let’s move on! Sigh!

In order to make anything a reality, you have to dream about it first. ~ Adora Svitak (age 7)